GAYBISEXUALTRANSGENDERED

So me and my friend keep getting in these ridiculous discussions about my sexuality and I'm so tired of them. She claims that I hate all gay men and that I don't realize I am indeed a gayman. First of all, I do not hate ALL gay men. In fact I have a few gay friends who I love, but the reality is that a lot of the gay boys at this school are either really pretentious, disgustingly slutty and flaming or utterly ridiculous. I cant help, but not wanting to be around them and in no way do I think myself superior it's just a matter of comfort. Secondly, I have struggled with my own sexuality for a very long time and find it very insulting for someone to judge me for the way I dress, behave or talk. Yes, I am aware that I dress up all the time and I can be feminine at times, but believe me, I have met some really feminine men who are straight as can be. I consider myself bisexual, but people dont understand it so I just say I'm gay. It's easier, which is really sad. Although I PREFER men, I have had feelings for women. In fact one of my longest and most meaningful relationships has been with a girl. Even now, when we're together theres this amazing chemistry that I cant explain. Yes they're rare occurences, but they happened. I chose not to act on those situations, but that was my choice. I'm the kind of person who likes "people". Yes, I know at this point a many number of you are shaking your heads at my cliche, but in reality I think the world would be such a great place if there were no such things as orientation. If people could fall in love with men or women regardless of gender. To some extent I feel that the world is maturing in that sense, but the ignorance of the common man still prevails and anything that is foreign is of course quickly attacked and discarded. Another thing that really sets me off is people trying to hook me up with their gay friends. First of all just because I'm gay doesn't mean that I'll instantly fall for the next gay guy I see (in fact in my case its the opposite. I usually fall for the straight ones). I mean what if we replaced the word gay with a race, or a situation. "Hey I really want you to meet my other black friend, I think you guys would really hit it off". How insulting. "Well I dont know maybe you guys could race each other in your wheelchairs or something" C'mon people, are we really so ignorant as to think homosexuals don't have preferences when it comes to who they find attractive. What really scares me is that this is still happening to me, even at a collegic level. So to my dear friend, kiss my ass because I bet if you lived a day in my shoes you'd see its not as easy as it looks.